LDS Singles ~ What was I thinking?

So I actually set up an account with LDS singles.com today. Why? I am not sure....I know I am not ready to have a relationship with anyone. I know that I don't have the time or the energy for something like that. But I was talking to Sarah and we were just curious about what is out there for someone in my position. Right now I can't imagine moving from here, I don't want to uproot the boys again so I am looking for someone local.....someday. There are a few out there but just looking made me realize that I am not ready personally. I am not on a strong enough foundation to have anything emotional, spiritual or even physical to offer. I don't know if I will every remarry, Part of me still Loves Joseph the person he was when I married him, the person he was for the first 4 years of our marriage. I have to be able to let go of him mentally and emotionally. I have to be able to forgive and let go of the love, hurt, angry and agony. The memories will always be there but the everyday emotion needs to be gone. I will not drag my past relationship with me into a new relationship. So I guess until I feel like I have let go and not let him emotionally affect me anymore.....I am not ready!